No more secrets...

I have a dear friend who recently blew the lid off her food secret. And this is what I wrote in response:

...and we love you. I'm bawling because your secret hits close to home. I know too many "fat chicks" with eating issues/disorders and most of it ties in with other things (alcoholism, abuse, food issues our parents helped to create)...for me, I have an addictive personality that swings to extremes (complicated by some of those other issues). I can't seem to find the middle ground on anything. We can do this together...all of us, if we just keep talking about it and helping each other through it.

Love you W and thank you for putting it out there; you may help someone else realize something about them selves before it is too late.

You see I have a bit of a food secret too. I love food, but yet hate it too. I am a sugar and fatty food addict and when I get stressed out/depressed, I do one of these things…eat way too much of it (in public or in secret), eat too much then puke from the guilt(I don't force it, it always just happens) or not eat at all. I don't fit neatly into one classification of eating disorders…I’m a nasty combination of them all, depending on my mental state and stress load.

I’m embarrassed, but I think these are some of the issues we as woman need to talk about to each other and help each other through. We have to find ways to help ourselves, our children and their children to NOT be this way, especially our daughters. I know many of us struggle with food and body image stuff and I’m standing up to say…

Hi, I am jenalih. I am an addict. I have an eating disorder and I want to deal with it responsibly. I want to have a better, healthier life and I can find ways to overcome my eating issues, I know I can. I just have to.