Friday, December 21, 2007

Need dd help

I saw the Dr today and things are OK, but I still must rest, rest, rest. He said at least 3 or 4 times that he wants me to make it to my scheduled c-section in January. I'm beginning to think I may not make it no matter how good I am, I am having way too many contractions, way too often, and some are way too painful...and I am being as good as I can be (without going insane).

My dd is getting resentful of my resting (I have had her helping more with easy dinners and doing only slightly more in other areas than she normally would...barely more). But how do I get through this if my kids can't help pick up some slack? My boys and hubby are helping more too, but my dd thinks I'm only picking on her...she was pissed tonight over it. I asked her if she would like to be the mom for a day to see that that job is hard too. She said, "Sure, I would love to rest all day!"(very snottily) I told her if she was mom for a day it would be doing everything I used to be able to do and that she has to "earn" this kind of resting with 8 months of illness and so much more. I just don't know how to get through to her. I need her help so much and I thank her for it all the time...just what else can I do? It is really stressing me out that she has come to think this way. I have tried really hard to not give her too much because she already has so much going on. Any ideas?

My oldest comes home tomorrow for the holidays. I really hope he will be willing to step in and help out a bit too. We have so much going on right now and I just want this "family team" to buck up and help each other get through it. I'm so grateful that I have had some friends who have been able to help out...it has been a true blessing to be able to get so much done so far. I don't know how I could ever thank them enough.

Well, this is all my body can handle so I best sign off and get back to resting....oh how I miss my dish network!

Sunday, December 16, 2007

Will I Ever Learn?

Ok, so I thought the few things I had planned for today would be fine. My body decided it was too much and I'm embarrassed to admit that I actually had to call a friend to bail me out. I was stuck in the shoe department of Wally's, I was so light headed I was afraid to move. I had already started to lose my sight and balance and decided to sit to wait it out. After 20 minutes, I was still not good, so I called a friend (thank you H) to come rescue me. She got me home (had a few contractions on the way) and I went straight to bed. The contractions finally ended after about 40 minutes and then I chilled out with my kids serving me my dinner and getting them to bed from the recliner. My body must have thought I was still doing too much, I have had a few more contractions again.

Obviously, I am stupid and think I know more about my body than my Dr., well no more, I'm putting myself on (slightly modified) bed rest as of now. I'm only going to allow myself to watch TV, read, and have a small amount of computer time each day. Today really scared me...I guess that is what it takes to get through my thick skull.

Wish me luck with not going insane, I'm going to need it.